Everyone keeps reminding me of my strength and courage but what everyone fails to see, is that I simply could not face every day (almost every day) with a positive attitude that I can win this battle, without the support of them. I have prayers being sent from my entire family here in Ohio, friends from the West Coast, Mid West, and the deepest of prayers from my family in the South, where faith runs a bit more thick.
Needless to say, I have surpassed the point of being overwhelmed by love, gifts, daily pick-me-ups, flowers, cards, countless hours spent by my side in the hospital (a place I still despise- some things you just can't get used to). I am grateful. And this has been another very, very tough lesson for a girl that never liked attention and had a really hard time accepting the generosity of others. There was always a sense of undeserving. My team has made that impossible to believe.
I must mention, that complete strangers have blown me away. I've said this once. And I'll say it again because it is simple, yet incredibly true and I firmly believe this: Very bad things often open your eyes to the good that exists in the world.
Lesson: Accept help. Accept time. Accept "things." Accept love. I saw a bumper sticker yesterday that read: Humankind; be both. I spent years believing the world is corrupt. Not that the belief has fully dissipated, but my, have I seen the good in the world in the past year.
Photo caption: I told you all that I wish I could work right now. Maybe this photo can explain why. My team is incredible. They've left me speechless. And made my Christmas.
Love you Tina and love this blog so so much. :)
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